When I begin to think about what I have or had been through which in comparison to others is nothing, then I begin to think of 🤔 what would have been if I said the truth, If I wasn’t scared 😟, If I was bold enough, If I was more confident, If I had run and looked for help. If ….. if…. if …. only if…
Yesterday the 31.12.2019 I was thinking out loud and saying that I was grateful for everything last year had brought me and was going to make sure I go in harder next year, which practically starts today. My friend got a little upset that the ‘New year Resolution’ thing is being hyped. He said that there is nothing like a new year but just a new day. I agree with him but not totally.
I see a new year not only as a new day but also a new start. This goes for the decision I will be making, Goals to be attained, bad habits to be broken, to be more focused and committed.
A new year, Yes, could be just another new day, but for me it is the mental feeling I get from it. The feeling that motivates me, encourages my soul and lits the fire that I could be a better me this new year. Oh yes in the middle of the year it may not go as planned but we will keep moving.
The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is in life to celebrateOprah Winfrey
Life is too short to be worrying and complaining but instead focus on how blessed you are for the simple things that you have.
Whenever I look 👀 back, I know now for sure that whatever happens in your life is your destiny and was predestined to be so.
Despite the challenges I am facing , I always want to be happy and positive even though some could be so hard. But the point is to be grateful and thankful for all you have.
2019 taught me a whole lot of things and gave me a new Dimension in life and also to see things from a different perspective.
Some things are so little we forget to take it into consideration. Little things they are, but are the biggest things. The importance of Gratitude 🙏 , are things like the air we breathe in, the bed we sleep in, food, a roof over our heads, love, happiness, being healthy and happy.
These things fill me in and make me glow from the inside because I am grateful to have these things.
Happiness is the utmost blessing a man can get if he has it. When you realize it the Earth 🌏 would move her best side to you.
How about you? What are you grateful for? Do you believe in New year Resolution? Do you think it is being hyped? Drop in the comment box below on how happy or the experiences you have had.
Happy New year and a wonderful month!
I am trying to be tough.
But I can’t, cause I miss the Talks, stupid talks and nothing talks.
I am trying to be tough
Even though I know I have been manipulated, lied to, treated badly and dehumanized.
I still come out of it all not looking back and knowing that one day, I would say to myself ‘oh I was tough and still am’.
But then I ask myself what went wrong?
Was it You? Your inhibitions? Your Exhibitions? Are you not able to perform? Are you not able to Conform to the rules? Your Fears? Your over happiness? Your …….
I am trying to be tough
But I have to talk to myself Because if I don’t, I might lose it.
I am trying to be tough
But then I start counting how lucky I am that I went through the Experience. And how lucky I am that I will still pass through more challenges.
I have to thank a whole lot of people who have in any way turned me down or tried to look down on me. Those people gave me a new perspective on life.
This all has thought me that I am worth it.
I am trying to be tough
But then I start from the beginning remembering what never existed… no memories…
Then I am tough.
Because then I remember I am Me and will be me and when I start realising that I need to get and set my standards straight then I will be tough.
I am tough
Because I hope and also believe that for me to be me I have to be tough and not try to be.
I have seen Arse lickers, i have seen people who belittle themselves or think if they lick arses they would be pitied or given a share or rather be favoured.
According to oxforddictionaries the definition is ;
You all know we live in an arse-licking economy.
The realisation of your entity or rather your life comes in when you feel shrunked, crowded or overpowered than you can imagine. Then you start Feeling that you have no choice than to give in or even start agreeing against your principles and practices.
This is the life we live in, making people bend into not what we envisioned for ourselves but for the purpose of comfort and peace to reign.
Have you ever thought about people who goes against the comfort of others are seen as aliens? Or people who refuse to lick arses are seen as non compromising, too loud, empty space and also as stupid people untill this people start making money, or start making waves and also been heard.
You don’t have to conform, you don’t have to be quiet, you don’t have to listen to anyone or other people choices for you!!, You don’t have to put other peoples consideration before yours, you don’t have to live behind the norm of the societies you live in.
YOU HAVE TO BE YOU.
I tell myself Princess be you. Don’t let anyone try to say, you too loud, or you too happy, or don’t sing any more, or you too local, or you too old, or you too skinny, or you too fat or you won’t make it life or in a relationship, or you too sick or too fit.
Look don’t let anyone decieve you in saying too much of everything is bad. I think it is better to be or have too much as too less. If you like something go for it and if you dont like something change it or rather leave it.
Rather than licking arses to get what you want stand up for yourself and get something done!!
You can share your thoughts and experience of what you think. Would love to know.
I am great, i will be great. Am great.
These words i chant to myself as i was on the train going to work, when i finally realised… i had to get out from this cocoon of laziness i set in my brain. Since this month began, i have had this feeling of .. i don’t give a f💟k attitude on not doing anything. Which has really been a pain to me, cause i feel weak and useless doing nothing.
If you are out there and also feeling this way… raise your hands please😂🙋🙋
There are many types of i dont give a f💝k attitude and mine was the one that can make someone loses focus on his/her purpose in life. 😢😢😢 and thats definitly not my aim.
On my last Post I spoke about ‘what is your Purpose in life’ seriously i began to doubt me, myself and I 😒🙆🙆 in the sense that in this month of January, I had a NULL, ZERO, NO Orientation and Motivation mood in either reading, going to the University, being creative or the zeal to go to work.
I told a friend of mine (Opons) her nickname. How I was feeling and she said if everyone was feeling this way, definitely not me and I said why not? I mean everyone goes through this Phase in life and even more. So why not me?
So dont beat yourself so much… at least that’s what i tell myself 😂😂👸👸 and I try to think positive and know that no Condition is Permanent.
Every year people set goals on what to achieve… and some say they do whatever pleases them… 😂or (as the spirit leads). But for people like me it has to be clear. I have to know how, when, and what I have to do in order to see my thinking or dreams comes to Realisation. Maybe it’s because am a Virgo…… 😕😕😕
Anyways I had to write this to tell anyone who reads this that regardless of what you are going through, sickness, hardship, no Motivation, no orientation, no money, or if you lose someone. Bear it in mind that you are not alone and no one can help you rise out of whatever pit you are in if you dont talk to yourself.
Talk to yourself… every day and also pray.
Please share with me and others in the comment section below on how this year been so far.
Happy new year my darlings and great success and achievement in everything you do.
P.S. I also devote this Text to my Cousins the Georgewills and pray God consoles them on losing their father my Uncle and a friend who lost her Mum.
Live, laugh, Love
Today as i laid on my Bed, my first thought was,
Princess what’s your purpose in life?
I have always asked myself this question but within the next second it leaves my mind or rather i thwart it away and focus on something else to organize in my brain.
Some people would love to travel, get married, have kids, learn new things, get rich, Study, buy expensive and Luxury cars, build good houses, meet their Idols, be Singers, renowned Artist and Professionals at whatever their choice of Career they choose.
I for one has always pondered what I wanted to be. As a kid I wanted to be a Doctor or an engineer (my family can attest to this I could repair practically everything… I mean tv’s and radios😛).
It was fixed in my head. But I loved to dance, listen to Music,(I could sing the whole playlist from the Radio), Pest people😂😛and also make people laugh.
I studied in the direction of my dreams but was not so sturdy like I thought I would be. Till I found what I love to do. Media.
Your purpose in life should be what Fulfils you. My childhood friend Blessing O. David said
Every one should find out what he has been called here for by God, and what God wants us to do with whom and how he wants us to do it.
I think for me its Happiness. Happiness is not a Livestyle but a choice between what works for you or rather what keeps you going, moving, motivates you, encourages you, wants to make you help others and also wants to make you live for another day.
Am still on the journey on finding my Purpose in life and also praying i keep getting directions on it.
My questions for you is, what is your purpose in life? And how do you intend to achieve it?
I Stand here not knowing my fate, What should i think? I only write my Fate once in a year…… Do i even Love …..? Does it look, seem and feel like Love?
I Stand here not knowing how to express my feelings, What should i think? This Situationship is driving me CRAZY! Do i even know how that feels? Cause it hurts where i never knew had pains, Do they even know how to relate to this Situation?
I Stand here trying to get my feelings in order, What should i think? I’m in doubt, thoughts scattered everywhere, Do i need to stay?
I Stand here confused, ripped out.